A sweet convert(Christianity to Islam) story : Accepted Islam at age 13
As Salaamu Alikam Wa Rahmatullah Wa Barakatu,I embraced Islam at 13
years of age, with very little knowledge and the help of Internet
friends.
At the age of 11 I began to question the Christian Faith as I
studied more in my Catholic Primary school, I was a very curious child
and asked many questions which lead me to get detentions, suspensions
and nearly to be expelled because I asked the Nuns and Priests many
questions which the could never answer and returned my questions with forms of punishment.
Having my questions on Christianity resulting in punishment lead me
to believe that it was not the true religion, so I started to seek out
different religions to find the one that is true.I studied a vast amount
of religions, some of the religions were weird or worshipped the devil
and in the end I came down to two religions; Islam and Judaism. As I
studied Judaism further I realized you need to be born a Jew to be a Jew
and there was no such thing as conversion. So this showed me that it
was not the true religion and I went towards Islam.
I searched for Internet friends who were Muslim so I could learn more
and how the people of Islam were like, which eventually lead to saying
the Shahadah at 13 years old but without any witnesses.I had no idea how
to pray but I prayed the parts I knew of Salaat, I tried to fast in
Ramadan which was very hard since when my Mother told my father I had
embraced Islam he was very angry and everyday for me became a living
hell. I was beaten, thrown and put through windows in my father’s
attempt to get me to renounce Islam he hated Muslims very dearly and
could not stand that his daughter had become a Muslim.I hated living in
my home because I was constantly abused and yelled at and when my mother
went to work that abuse became worse, my siblings were scared and tried
everything they could to stop my father from hurting me. Eventually I
lied and said I had left Islam to Hinduism which my father was pleased
with and so was his family but I still hid the fact I was still a
Muslim, I still tried to pray but one day my father caught me praying
and realised I had lied… He was so angry he wouldn’t talk to me for a
month.
After a few years I decided to meet up with a Muslim friend I had
made on the internet and when my father became aware of this he went out
of control, he grabbed me and strangled me but Alhamdillah I escaped,
as I ran towards the door but I didn’t make it out of the house he took
me and put me through the fly wire door window and threw me into my
bedroom. I had many bruises and had broken my toe which later on he told
people I had harmed myself to make him look like a bad father.I was
stuck in this house and even though child protection services had been
called on numerous occasions they did nothing, in Eid ul-Fitr I ran into
a Muslim sister who took my number and invited me for Eid celebrations
which mother let me attend, I met many Muslims who are now my dearest
friends. That day was the first day I had met true practicing Muslims
and I learnt many things.A few days after meeting these sister’s my
father came into my bedroom while I watched a Bollywood film and started
abusing me about Islam and why I was a Muslim.I was confused I didn’t
know what I had done wrong to make him angry this time, he went to hit
me but for the first time every, I defended myself; I threw the TV
remote at him but not at his face. He was so shocked and then eventually
after his brief moment of silence he told me to Leave Islam and you can
stay and live with us, choose Islam then get the F…. out of my house. I
got up, packed my bags with my Hijab’s and Quran and school books and
told him Alright I will leave and as I walked out of the house my
siblings tried to stop me while they were crying, I didn’t want to leave
them but I didn’t want to leave my religion. My mother kept telling me
that things will change and she had been telling me so for the last
three years since I had embraced Islam so I knew things wouldn’t change
they’d just stay the same.I called the sister who I met in the shopping
centre’s mother in law who picked me up and took me to another sister’s
house where I lived with her for 3 months. I learned how to pray
properly, how to eat the Sunnah way and many more things, I then moved
into another sister’s house where I lived there for two weeks and her
mother then invited me into her home and I payed rent for a room in her
house.
I few weeks went by and the sister I was living with wanted to attend
the Taleem of a Taabligh Jamaat group and I went along with her, as
being a revert the sisters wanted to know my story and I told them.This
is where I met my mother in law, the Jamaat was in her house and she
heard my story and fell in love with me, after the Taabligh Jamaat left
her house she told her son about me and he was interested but wanted me
to observe niqab. My mother in law contacted the first sister I lived
with and asked if I was interested which I was since I felt alone with
no family. My husband and I emailed each other for two weeks to get to
know each other and then we finally met with his mother present. I was
so shy and nervous I laughed nearly the whole time we were together, we
talked and then my mother in law asked if we liked each other and we
said we did, so she decided we’d marry the next day after Magrib. My
husband and I were both shocked as it was so quick but the sooner is the
better and it’s a Sunnah.
The next day in early morning the sister in Islam who is now one of
my best friends took me out to buy my wedding dress, it hadn’t hit me
yet that I was getting married at Magrib time. Her son kept saying
you’re not getting married your too young who’d marry you, you’re
smelly.Her son became like a brother to me and he was sad that I was
getting married and he wasn’t going to see me as often.As we were in the
car driving to my mother in laws house I started to cry from happiness
and from being nervous… I hadn’t told my parents of this marriage yet.
And I knew it would come in a result of more hatred towards Islam and
me.We did the Nikkah after Magrib and ate, my husband wanted to see me
and all the sisters pushed me out of the room into the hallway to meet
my husband but I hadn’t washed my hands yet from eating. My husband went
to take my hand in salaams but I lifted my hand up and told him it’s
dirty and he laughed. After I had clean hands we sat and talked and also
sat in silence where I observed he hadn’t cut his toe nails for our
wedding night.
After 1 year and 1 month I gave birth to my baby boy who we named
Abdulmalik, he weighed 4.3kgs and barely fitted in the normal newborn
clothes. He is my joy and since being kicked out of home and disowned my
life became a thousand times better for Allah swt had given me a great
reward for being patience in the 3 years of abuse for not renouncing
Islam.My father is still angry but the rest of my family are a lot
better, we talk as much as possible but I have not seen them for 1 year
and 4 months. My father doesn’t want to acknowledge he has a son in law
or a grandson. I hope Allah swt gives my family hidaya. Inshallah
Ameen to your duas Sister,,
all i want to say “When Guidance from Allah swt comes,Age is not matter to see and accept the truth”
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